DAY 5: The SON...

"GOD: Don't look around because you'll be impressed. Don't look down you'll be depressed; just look to Me and you'll be blessed. "


Sometimes we are being pressured by life.  Nothing is safe here on earth, that's the main reason why i really wanted to die.  Because for me it is better to die than to live in the world full of pain and disappointment. I have had enough of those, and ayoko na. Kaya siguro ganito ako ngayon because of the pain being inflicted to me by the people whom i thought would never really hurt me. Napaka bilis kong ma disappoint, hindi lang nasunod yung gusto kong concept or script, wala na disappointed na ako, lalo na kapag nasaktan ako ng taong alam kong hindi ako kayang saktan, nakakasakit ng buong katawan, tagos hanggang boto ang sakit.


Today, i encountered the feeling, na disappoint na naman ako. I thought everything has changed, but i know hanggang thought lang yun, nag-init na naman ang ulo ko, but thank God, He reminded me that when I look to people, i will only end up being disappointed and eventually, ma de-depress ako. But when I'll make Him the center, my point of reference, my everything, I'll be blessed.
DAY 5 has been a very long day for me, a day full of disappointment but at the end of the day, i realized one thing, God had revealed a gift i should rediscover and that is His SON, Jesus. Looking unto Him is a blessing, instead of getting disappointed and depressed, we'll be blessed because we are being reminded that everything here on earth is temporary and one day all of our sacrifices,pains, and disappointments will end.


Thank God, He gave His only son JESUS as a gift.

DAY 4: SECOND TIME AROUND

DAY 4: "SECOND TIME AROUND..."

"Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. "

My day started with a text message from someone, in which i did not expect. I did not respond to his message but rather i just kept on thinking of why is he acting strange suddenly.  No offense to that someone but hindi ako agad naniwala sa mga text message niya, pati sa actions na pinapakita niya. He's actually acting weird.  Dami na pumapasok sa isip ko na baka joke na naman ito, o hindi na nito kayang baguhin ang sarili niya.

But then, i prayed to God, "LORD, ano ang i-reveal mo sa akin today?" suddenly He answered me "SIYA"! Natulala ako while sitting on my high chair sa office. "SIYA? Bakit?" Ayoko sanang maniwala pero parang may point nga si God.  Why am i not believing the actions of that guys? It's because hindi siya ganun ever since, but God was telling me, "Why not give him and yourself a chance to prove na kaya niyong dalawang magbago."

All of a sudden, naglabas lahat sa isip ko na everyone really deserves a second chance, chance para sa lahat ng tao hindi lang naman sa lovers or couples yan, pati rin sa pamilya, a chance to gather and have a bonding moments together. Chances are very rare, not everyone can have it but everyone deserves it. Kaya if you are caught by chances grab it and don't waste your time thinking if it's worth it because i tell you it is.

Even God Himself gave us chances everyday, He forgives us, He loves us unconditionally.  Why not be like Him?  We can also forgive and forget, to start a new life by giving ourselves a chance to give second chances to other people.  All of us are capable of making a good coffee, all we have to do is to put the right ingredients and stir it well for it to taste good.  In life if we are given a second chance, we must make the most out of it, and prove that the chance they've given to us eh hindi natin sasayangin.

DAY 4 is a day of rediscovering the GIFT OF CHANCE. Everyday is a chance to smile, to love, to forgive and to give second chances to those people whom we thought don't deserve because EVERYONE DESERVES TO HAVE IT.

DAY 3: KIDS' PARTY

DAY 3: "KIDS PARTY..."

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."

I was inspired looking at the children very happy and really enjoying the party. Not all kids can have a birthday party like "kaye-kaye" did, i'm sure if kids were only adult, they will surely envy "kaye-kaye" and might not enjoy the party because of jealousy. Hmm, that's what i like about kids, they don't have any problems, they get something without complaining, they enjoy what they have with contentment.

On the 3rd day, God has a message for me, i'm really sure this is His message, 11:30 AM was KAYE KAYE's Birthday Party after the party I went to church with my mom and sister at 4 PM and the sermon is all about contentment.  See, God prepares my heart by appreciating the children at the party so that during the sermon I can appreciate His message. I'm so grateful, nothing really compares to the promise I have in Him.

Sometimes, we are too focused on the gift rather than the giver or focused on what other people might think about us.  We forget to enjoy the things God has given (1) because we are greedy and (2) we are guilty.
(1) The Bible says in Philippians 4:19 "and my God will supply all my NEED..." not GREED, kaya hindi tayo na-b-bless ni God kasi, we became selfish and discontent of what we have, we want more and if we cannot have what we want we BACKBITE God.

(2) the crowd wants us to be SAD but our God wants us to be GLAD. so in every gift God has given, ENJOY it with contentment by not having more but by being grateful of what you have and instead of focusing too much on the gift, be overwhelmed and thank the giver without minding the crowd. If God blesses you too much, do not decline but always abound. It's God's gift.

On my DAY 3, I rediscover the gift of ENJOYING with CONTENTMENT.  Thank God for this privilege. I must enjoy my life with contentment. I hope you, too.

DAY 2: THE RECONCILIATION

DAY 2: "THE RECONCILIATION..."

The weakest and the most pathetic person is the one who hold anger, hatred, revenge and unable to forgive the past.

This is what God revealed to me on the 2nd day of the challenge. Hindi lang naman sa mag syota na-aapply ito, pati rin sa relasyon natin sa pamilya, kaibigan at bawat tao.  When i became someone I'm not, hindi lang naman ako ang nagtaka sa pagbabago ko, kundi ang mga tao rin sa paligid ko.  They were asking if there's something wrong with me, but everytime they ask me, isa lang sagot ko, "I'M OKAY!", but at the back of my mind, i know i'm not.  That was the start of the big gap in which i myself created, gap between me and my friends, my boyfriend, my family and the most hurtful gap i made was with my God.
Thank God, on my DAY 2, God revealed the Gift of Reconciliation, if we repent, if we ask for another chance, He's there to forgive us without kapalit. The LESSON here is that, nakakapagbigay nga ang Maykapal ng kapatawaran at second chances, tayo pa kaya na napaka PETTY lang ng kasalanan ng ibang tao sa atin. Minsan kelangan nating magpatawad, hindi dahil para sa ibang tao, o pakitang tao, kundi kailangan natin para sa ating mga sarili. 

It's not easy to FORGIVE because to FORGIVE is to FORGET and it's hard to FORGET the things that caused us pain. But if we let go of it, everything will turn out to be what God wants us to be. Drop the pride, ask for forgiveness, forgive the one who caused you pain, and most of all give them second chances.  I tell you it's not easy but it FEELS GOOD INSIDE.

Happy RECONCILIATION DAY to me. I hope you'll have it too one of these days. 

DAY 1: GOING SOLO

DAY 1: "Going SOLO..."

my day started with a tension sa work. sabi ko, ganito ba ang simula ng 32 days challenge ko? paano kung maubos nalang ang araw eh wala parin akong makita. Hanggang sa nakita ko ito picture na ito na kinuha ko noong "AUGUST 7, 2011". C2 na SOLO, nakapag-usap kami ni Ms. Kat tungkol sa mga LOVELIFE, i appreciate her effort to wait for her special someone regardless of when he'll come back. Parehas kami, we're going SOLO, but we never have the guts to find another one just to fill the gaps because we both agreed na hindi parin enough ang ibang tao para palitan yung taong hinihintay namin.  

Like her, i really wanted to exert an effort to wait for my special someone, however, wala akong patience, kasi gusto ko madalian. Being single doesn't mean you're lonely, you're desperate, you're not lovable. What i learned from being single is how to be patient. PATIENT in waiting for someone to come and rescue me, or waiting for someone to come back. In the end, not everything will turned out to be what we want it to be. God has a reason for everything just TRUST Him, enjoy what is in your hands right now, because not all the time you'll gonna have it, remember, God is the GOD who gives and takes away. If we are patient enough to wait, everything will be worth it. Who says it feels like heaven? No ONE! Because even though it hurts like HELL for the mean time, it will turn out to be the BEST PART OF YOUR LIFE, IF YOU ARE PATIENTLY WAITING.

Today, i rediscover the gift of PATIENCE while WAITING. Thank You Lord. ;) 

32 days CHALLENGE

WE ALL GROW UP AND FEEL THE PRESSURE OF LIFE. THIS 32 DAYS CHALLENGE FOR A CHANGE WILL BE REDISCOVERING GOD'S GIFT IN WHICH MOST OF US HAS TAKEN IT FOR GRANTED.