THIS DAY

Yes, I remember THAT DAY when I became BITTER just because someone did leave me hanging and broken. THAT DAY when I said, we will never have our happy ending just like John Lloyd and Angel. THAT DAY is over! THAT DAY turns out to be THIS DAY full of happiness and lessons' learned.

Happy to share our story with you madlang people, we became someone whom you think we're not. HA HA! Funny our story never ended THAT DAY.  I never expected that it was only the beginning of A Beautiful Affair.  Sometimes, love needs to break us so that it could bring out the best in us. What happened to us is familiar, I know. We've seen it a lot in movies, but it's beyond what our eyes can see, beyond our senses can feel. It's a special way of finding true love with the world caving in. It did break the both of us but it brought the best of what we thought would not come out from us. LOVE! From fling, to love. From love, to anger. From anger, to forgiveness. From forgiveness, to hope.  And finally when there is Hope, there is LOVE. Despite of the challenges, we've broken the 7 years of individual past memoir, the accumulated hurt was finally over and found a place to stay not just for 7 years but forever. Past doesn't matter anymore, as long as there is forgiveness in both heart and mind. Forgive and forget.

Thank God, i've gambled THAY DAY, i've risked the important part of my life and just when I thought I lose, hope came and made me a winner. Prizes doesn't come always with a beautiful package, sometimes 1st prize comes from an envelop. You are not excited to open the ordinary envelop because you're hurt to see the outward appearance of your prize, without your knowing that prize could bring you to places. I've betted too much, lose hard and won 1st prize from this game, all because THAT DAY i met him, THAT DAY we flirted, THAT DAY we fell in love, THAT DAY we've been hurted and finally THAT DAY we stood up and cleaned the mess we've made. I love thinking THAT DAY. We've learned from our failures, we've learned to let go, we've thought of changing our lives and just so we know we've already found TRUE LOVE. TRUE LOVE that blooms out of THAT DAY.

THAT DAY, i prayed a lot to finally see my match... THIS DAY happens because THAT DAY, yes THAT DAY happened.

I KNOW A GUY

I know a guy who is TALL
a guy who spent his time for all
he does very good in basketball
She wonders why his game is not to win a ball.

I know a guy not sweet, not sour
a guy who patiently listens to his girl all the time
He waits outside with a smile that makes her DEVOUR
She ponders a lot why he loves her that much

I know a guy who’s love is pure
a guy who takes care and always assures
He wakes up early just to text if she’s really sure
She’s asking if her love is that impure

I know a guy who HOLDS her heart
a guy who stays even if she tries to depart
he pleads to have a good restart
Her heart breaks a lot without him knowing when they’re apart

And now that guy she knows she must ask to never go
Away from her arms, she wants now to show
that her love for him will always here
in her HEART with a promise, “I WILL NEVER LEAVE”.

That Day...

"Ever since I met you, it hasn't been the same. All you got me doing is drawing hearts around your name."

Oh! that day, when you smiled... Oh! that day, when you waved your hand and said hi... That day, yes the day i regret the most that i remembered your eyes and your sweet smile.

I guess we always fall for the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time.. and sometimes for the most unexpected reason. One thing i'll never forget about Love is the RISK you take just to experience the feeling of being loved and being in love. HA HA! Funny, it's like gambling... You'll never know how much you've betted until you lose. You've gambled everything just to win the game, you have nothing left for yourself and still you lose the game.

The sad part here is that why do people gamble, why risk? If you know in the first place that you'll never gonna win, why spend too much and have nothing in return? They said that it's worth it, others said it's worth the game. In my opinion, it's the other way around. Let me share a story:

Maybe you're familiar with the box office hit movie "Unofficially Yours" or even the movie "500 days of Summer", they have the same concept and story, and that is "to play around". At first, in a non-serious relationship, both parties decided to enter in to a game. Very fun though, go out together, watch movies together, they get what they want in a relationship without commitment, yah! what's wrong with that? It's fun, right?  Days passed by, the intimacy becomes stronger, they look for each other often, they find time for each other and they make love or should i say make out.. HA HA! They're starting to text and call each other every morning, and night, just to ask if they're alright. HA HA! But just like playing pokers, both parties might be playing around but only one gets so serious of winning that he gambled much without thinking of the possibility of losing the game. The one who betted much, loses the game, and the one who isn't serious of winning gets the trophy. Unfair, isn't it? But what's being unfair with that concept, no one has to be blame because both of you decided to play. But what if your playmate suddenly allows you to peep with his cards? You thought you could win the game because you know his cards, not knowing he hides the other cards for you not to take a look at it. In love, someone makes a promise and get you to the highest hopes of being loved but suddenly quits and leaves you hanging and broken. Sad experience, so many learning... It's not like the movies we imagined, what happened to Angel and John Lloyd won't happen to us, not even a small piece of happiness in the end. In my life, someone has taken me to high places too but then leaves me hanging and alone in the air. No happy ending like what happened to John Lloyd and Angel.  So what makes you think that I can get through with this? What's my opinion about risking? I know you can answer without reading the sentences below...

Risking for the sake of winning is maybe fun, but it can cut us deeply. It's like a cow being slaughtered, at first they will take you to a serene place thought you could relax, give you so much like you think you're being pampered by the most loving person in the world but suddenly they shoot you without your knowing, you're dead and they got the most fresh meat in town.


Be careful especially to the girls, our dream of having a guy who could stand up for us, who could not hurt us like others did... RELAX! it'll come soon just don't gamble and don't take the risk again like I did, like some of us did. Though loving takes a lot of risk, may you wait for someone who can also risk what they have for you... In love, "it takes two to TANGO", you can dance gracefully when you have someone you know who can dance with you through good times and bad, not dancing for the sake of dancing, but he dances because he loves to swing his hips in the air for you even without music.

Maybe THAT DAY we've realized that we've gambled much, THAT DAY we've learned from our failures, and THAT DAY we've thought of changing our lives. Just don't forget that LOVE happens for everyone, it happened to my friends, it maybe happening to you now but i know not yet to me.

I'll risk again someday in His time.. maybe not today but i know THAT DAY will surely come. THAT DAY, when i can truly say I'VE FOUND MY MATCH.

yenmariee <3

Gamu-Gamo

Naaalala mo ba ang kwento ng ating pambansang bayani na si Jose Rizal tungkol sa isang gamu-gamo na umaaligid sa gasera?  Sa mga hindi maka-alala, narito ang kwento:

Isang gabi, habang si Pepe ay nag-aaral katabi ang isang gasera, may gamu-gamo na umaaligid dito.  Siguro ay tuwang-tuwa ang maliit na gamu-gamo sa liwanag na taglay ng gasera ni Pepe, kaya't noong pinayuhan siya ng kanyang inang huwag lumapit sa gasera sa dahilang baka masunog ang anak dito, ay nagpumilit pa rin itong lumapit at halatang nag-eenjoy sa mainit na paligid ang anak.  Alalang-alala ang ina sa kalagayan ng anak habang umaaligid sa gasera, ngunit wala itong magawa sapagkat gustong-gusto naman ng anak ang liwanag na taglay ng gasera ni Pepe.  Hindi nagtagal, nadatnan ng init ng apoy ang maliit na gamu-gamo, at di naglao'y nasunog ang mga pakpak nito.  Kaya simula noon, naging masunurin na ang gamu gamo sa kanyang ina at nangakong makikinig ito sa kanya parati.

Minsan tayong mga tao ay parang gamu-gamo.  Pilit nating sinusunod ang mga gusto natin, kahit na alam nating sa bandang huli masasaktan tayo.  Minsan naring nahalintulad ang buhay ni Aiko sa isang gamu-gamo, ito ay noong na-inlab siya. Di sukat akalain ni Aiko na nakakasakit pala ang pag-ibig, na kapag nadatnan ka ng init ng apoy nito ay masusunog ka't malalampa.  Minsan ng pinayuhan ng kamag-anak at mga kaibigan, na huwag masyadong lumapit at baka siya'y masunog, ngunit nagmatigas si Aiko at ipinagpatuloy ang paglipad.

Sa kanyang paglipad, bigla siyang natumba at di naglaon ay napaso siya sa lumalagablab na apoy ng pag-ibig.  Nasaktan, umiyak, nalampa at ngayon hindi na makabangon.  Kung sana'y noong una pa'y nakinig na siya sa payo ng iba, di sana'y naging maayos pa ang lahat sa kanya.  Sugatan ang pakpak ni Aiko,sa tingin niya'y hindi maaayos agad-agad ito, at sa kasalukuyan ay hindi na muna makakalipad ang pobreng si Aiko.

Ngayon si Aiko ay nangakong gaya ng binitiwang pangako ng isang maliit na gamu-gamo, makikinig na sa payo at hindi na magiging matigas ang ulo, hinding-hindi na muling dudungaw at aaligid sa gasera. Hinding-hindi na muling iibig ng sobra.  Hindi pa ngayon, baka bukas kapag ayos na mga pakpak nito, kapag handa na itong muling lumipad. Lilipad ito ng walang halong takot, ngunit aalalahanin ang mga babala na ibibigay sa kanya ng mga mahal sa buhay at hinding hindi na masasaktan sapagkat siya ay MAINGAT na sa muling PAGTIBOK NG KANYANG PUSO.